The Cause

Thu, 10 Jul 2008 16:30:23 GMT

I feel like I should return to Warren one last time to close off that chapter in my life. Like how Superman returned to Krypton for a little while and how Roland never returned to Gilead.

Tue, 20 May 2008 01:11:46 GMT

I feel like the moving world is leaving me behind, or maybe I just never got on

Tue, 22 Apr 2008 15:58:24 GMT

Coming home this weekend....time to make your reservations. :P

Fri, 18 Apr 2008 04:40:36 GMT

Nice guys finish last, but the good girls never finish at all. :P

Thu, 17 Apr 2008 05:50:02 GMT

If all goes well and accordingly I shall be In Michigan the weekend before my brthday.

Thu, 17 Apr 2008 04:28:17 GMT

There’s a hole in the world like a great black pit
And it’s filled with people who are filled with shit
And the vermin of the world inhabit it

Thu, 03 Apr 2008 06:20:52 GMT

I feel so left out sometimes.

Sun, 09 Mar 2008 07:48:48 GMT

Damn why did I leave California? It is so cold here in Wisconsin, I am unsure whether if I have a permit hypothermia condition or if I've finally just gone and went complete cold and cold hearted.

Thu, 06 Mar 2008 06:31:56 GMT

Gah I hate my mind. Does anyone know any euthanasia specialist? I can't seem to pull the trigger myself.

Tue, 04 Mar 2008 03:57:49 GMT

The heart works best, when it doesn't work at all.

Mon, 03 Mar 2008 19:43:39 GMT

Just when I thought I had a firm control over my feelings and emotions...just takes one person to make it all come crashing down and make me lose my mind.

Sat, 23 Feb 2008 23:38:51 GMT

So I'm getting this job to be a cook at a Correction Institution. Awesome.

Thu, 07 Feb 2008 09:06:52 GMT

Apparently I have alot of relatives and some friends who want to be lawyers and forensic/CSI people. I find that delightful as I plan on being a criminal.

Thu, 24 Jan 2008 05:47:03 GMT

The past few months I feel like I am really getting back to my Asian roots. Getting away from the white-washing I have suffered....just playing, I still have love for all the non-Asian peoples.

Wed, 23 Jan 2008 05:27:03 GMT

So I am going to be my cousin's best man...in a Hmong Wedding, which basically means I am going to get fucking wasted.

Tue, 22 Jan 2008 17:38:12 GMT

I hate the way I am at times, with all the thinking I do.

Wed, 16 Jan 2008 09:30:50 GMT

So it seems that my dad has chosen a girl for me to marry and has his heart set on seeing it happen. Only I don't work that way, I can't just up and marry, especially to someone I've only met when I was like 3 and they were like 1. But I just get the "it's our culture" BS excuse thrown in my face. Ugh, fucking parents.

Sun, 13 Jan 2008 07:55:21 GMT

Three more hours til I head to the Airport. Going to Wisconsin to start my life over...again. Sometimes I feel like such a nomad, always on the move, no place to call home. No family, friends seem like distant memories echoing through my head. So empty inside and on the outside. When will it end?

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 05:01:33 GMT

Damn, my 2 cousins that I grew up with, 1st cousin at that, one 10 days older than me the other 10 days younger are both getting married, the younger one already has a 10 month old baby. Its seem really weird, I have always been he ring leader, now I am the slacker. but wow

Thu, 27 Dec 2007 06:38:11 GMT

On the 28th I will be going to Wisconsin to spend New Years with my little brother and sister...I will also be the closet to home I have been in 4 months...almost close enough to drive home....

Wed, 26 Dec 2007 16:04:01 GMT

STAND and DELIVER or the devil....he may take ya!

Mon, 24 Dec 2007 16:31:51 GMT

On my walk this morning, I had an epiphany of sorts of what I want to accomplish in my life. I want to one day start my own music school. More than just teaching music on the physical note but on the more deeper note.

Music to me is the embodiment of perfection, the world and everything in perfect balance and harmony. It fills the voids we have in our lives, it soothes the savage beast. While the world and life may not be perfect or fair, music is. From the natural music of nature at work such as the ocean waves crashing or the flow of a small stream upon the rocks to the classical composers to the modern musicians, music is perfect in that it is what it is and is everything.

Some may argue that if music is perfect why is it always evolving. I do not believe music it evolves at all. Everything thing else evolves and changes and music is just the perfect reflection of the changes. Music through the ages have always remained itself. The perfect harmonies of everything working together.

I can go on forever but I will stop here.

Mon, 24 Dec 2007 14:35:19 GMT

....what stupid poem can fix this home? I'd read it everyday.

Sun, 23 Dec 2007 06:39:58 GMT

I suppose I should be used to it by now, which I sort of am. Another Christmas holiday is going to be spent alone. Tonight I went with my sister to her in-laws so that they could do their Christmas thing since most of them will be gone. They all seemed happy and like the perfect reflection of what a family should be, something that I have known once upon a time but no longer. I've been here since August and I still feel like an outcast. Maybe soon I will just legally change my name to Ebenezer.

Eh, who needs family anyways.

What really grinds my gears.....

Wed, 19 Dec 2007 09:29:26 GMT

Last night I started writing this rant about my opinion of the world today and what really grinds my gears. It was suppose to be short paragraph or maybe just even a couple of sentences, but then it carried onto a few pages, and then after reading it, I realized it would offend a lot of people. So, I will just tease it, rather than actually display it.