The Cause

snipet52 @ 2008-07-10T11:28:00

2008-07-10T16:30:23Z

I feel like I should return to Warren one last time to close off that chapter in my life. Like how Superman returned to Krypton for a little while and how Roland never returned to Gilead.

snipet52 @ 2008-05-19T20:11:00

2008-05-20T01:11:46Z

I feel like the moving world is leaving me behind, or maybe I just never got on

snipet52 @ 2008-04-22T10:54:00

2008-04-22T15:58:24Z

Coming home this weekend....time to make your reservations. :P

snipet52 @ 2008-04-18T00:00:00

2008-04-18T04:40:36Z

Nice guys finish last, but the good girls never finish at all. :P

snipet52 @ 2008-04-17T01:09:00

2008-04-17T05:50:02Z

If all goes well and accordingly I shall be In Michigan the weekend before my brthday.

snipet52 @ 2008-04-16T23:47:00

2008-04-17T04:28:17Z

There’s a hole in the world like a great black pit
And it’s filled with people who are filled with shit
And the vermin of the world inhabit it

snipet52 @ 2008-04-03T01:40:00

2008-04-03T06:20:52Z

I feel so left out sometimes.

snipet52 @ 2008-03-09T02:05:00

2008-03-09T07:48:48Z

Damn why did I leave California? It is so cold here in Wisconsin, I am unsure whether if I have a permit hypothermia condition or if I've finally just gone and went complete cold and cold hearted.

snipet52 @ 2008-03-06T00:49:00

2008-03-06T06:31:56Z

Gah I hate my mind. Does anyone know any euthanasia specialist? I can't seem to pull the trigger myself.

snipet52 @ 2008-03-03T22:16:00

2008-03-04T03:57:49Z

The heart works best, when it doesn't work at all.

snipet52 @ 2008-03-03T14:01:00

2008-03-03T19:43:39Z

Just when I thought I had a firm control over my feelings and emotions...just takes one person to make it all come crashing down and make me lose my mind.

snipet52 @ 2008-02-23T17:34:00

2008-02-23T23:38:51Z

So I'm getting this job to be a cook at a Correction Institution. Awesome.

snipet52 @ 2008-02-07T03:23:00

2008-02-07T09:06:52Z

Apparently I have alot of relatives and some friends who want to be lawyers and forensic/CSI people. I find that delightful as I plan on being a criminal.

snipet52 @ 2008-01-23T23:55:00

2008-01-24T05:47:03Z

The past few months I feel like I am really getting back to my Asian roots. Getting away from the white-washing I have suffered....just playing, I still have love for all the non-Asian peoples.

snipet52 @ 2008-01-22T23:36:00

2008-01-23T05:27:03Z

So I am going to be my cousin's best man...in a Hmong Wedding, which basically means I am going to get fucking wasted.

snipet52 @ 2008-01-22T11:35:00

2008-01-22T17:38:12Z

I hate the way I am at times, with all the thinking I do.

snipet52 @ 2008-01-16T03:37:00

2008-01-16T09:30:50Z

So it seems that my dad has chosen a girl for me to marry and has his heart set on seeing it happen. Only I don't work that way, I can't just up and marry, especially to someone I've only met when I was like 3 and they were like 1. But I just get the "it's our culture" BS excuse thrown in my face. Ugh, fucking parents.

snipet52 @ 2008-01-12T23:52:00

2008-01-13T07:55:21Z

Three more hours til I head to the Airport. Going to Wisconsin to start my life over...again. Sometimes I feel like such a nomad, always on the move, no place to call home. No family, friends seem like distant memories echoing through my head. So empty inside and on the outside. When will it end?

snipet52 @ 2008-01-06T20:59:00

2008-01-07T05:01:33Z

Damn, my 2 cousins that I grew up with, 1st cousin at that, one 10 days older than me the other 10 days younger are both getting married, the younger one already has a 10 month old baby. Its seem really weird, I have always been he ring leader, now I am the slacker. but wow

snipet52 @ 2007-12-26T22:37:00

2007-12-27T06:38:11Z

On the 28th I will be going to Wisconsin to spend New Years with my little brother and sister...I will also be the closet to home I have been in 4 months...almost close enough to drive home....

snipet52 @ 2007-12-26T08:03:00

2007-12-26T16:04:01Z

STAND and DELIVER or the devil....he may take ya!

snipet52 @ 2007-12-24T08:20:00

2007-12-24T16:31:51Z

On my walk this morning, I had an epiphany of sorts of what I want to accomplish in my life. I want to one day start my own music school. More than just teaching music on the physical note but on the more deeper note.

Music to me is the embodiment of perfection, the world and everything in perfect balance and harmony. It fills the voids we have in our lives, it soothes the savage beast. While the world and life may not be perfect or fair, music is. From the natural music of nature at work such as the ocean waves crashing or the flow of a small stream upon the rocks to the classical composers to the modern musicians, music is perfect in that it is what it is and is everything.

Some may argue that if music is perfect why is it always evolving. I do not believe music it evolves at all. Everything thing else evolves and changes and music is just the perfect reflection of the changes. Music through the ages have always remained itself. The perfect harmonies of everything working together.

I can go on forever but I will stop here.

snipet52 @ 2007-12-24T06:34:00

2007-12-24T14:35:19Z

....what stupid poem can fix this home? I'd read it everyday.

snipet52 @ 2007-12-22T22:34:00

2007-12-23T06:39:58Z

I suppose I should be used to it by now, which I sort of am. Another Christmas holiday is going to be spent alone. Tonight I went with my sister to her in-laws so that they could do their Christmas thing since most of them will be gone. They all seemed happy and like the perfect reflection of what a family should be, something that I have known once upon a time but no longer. I've been here since August and I still feel like an outcast. Maybe soon I will just legally change my name to Ebenezer.

Eh, who needs family anyways.

What really grinds my gears.....

2007-12-19T09:29:26Z

Last night I started writing this rant about my opinion of the world today and what really grinds my gears. It was suppose to be short paragraph or maybe just even a couple of sentences, but then it carried onto a few pages, and then after reading it, I realized it would offend a lot of people. So, I will just tease it, rather than actually display it.